I can't sleep, therefore I am posting.
I'm getting back into that habit of comparing myself with other people, which is making me feel shitty.
I've joined a gym (finally) and I'm starting tomorrow morning. To be honest, I'm excited. I want to get fit, I want to get in shape. The physical shape that my body is in right now is super revolting. But I guess everyone has a starting point.
I hate having issues with who I am. I don't like the way I look, the way I speak, the way my mind works. I don't know WHY I still not have come to terms with who I am and this is who I'll always be. It's fucking annoying. I even find myself annoying.
I don't understand.