13 October 2011

i play with the angels at night, and bruise their little throats with my fingertips

I can't sleep, therefore I am posting.
I'm getting back into that habit of comparing myself with other people, which is making me feel shitty.
I've joined a gym (finally) and I'm starting tomorrow morning. To be honest, I'm excited. I want to get fit, I want to get in shape. The physical shape that my body is in right now is super revolting. But I guess everyone has a starting point.

I hate having issues with who I am. I don't like the way I look, the way I speak, the way my mind works. I don't know WHY I still not have come to terms with who I am and this is who I'll always be. It's fucking annoying. I even find myself annoying.

I don't understand. 

1 comment:

  1. I feel the same. That I don't like who I am and always hope to change. Who I am is not someone I would like to be around.


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